Today I have been to a place that I really like and I did have fun, but now afterwards I think about what we just did and that makes me feel stupid for even trying and I am really close to tears. Today I went to a place called "Alboegen", in there you are going into different cells and solve the problem. You need strength and a bright brain. That was some of the things I had but are now not available for me. Brain I still got but my body is not what it was. I'm so sad that I'm not able too do all this, that I don't have the energi to do the things I love anymore. But I have put a goal. I'm going to work on my physical health first and then I'm going to work my way up to be able to train and do what I love.

Feeling pretty good at the moment, had a rough start in the morning but after letting out some steam I feel alright. Now being able to sit down with my dad and going for a ride makes me appreciate life even more. And proud for being strong enough to not end it.